When do you feel most peaceful ever?

When I talk to my sister(18) She’s sweet and understands why I do what I do, and why I say the things I say to her. She forgives me quite a bit lol

When I sleep, it’s just SO fucking calm.

When I talk to my gf'(we’re not together but she’s still my pookie) She’s really sweet aswell. She’s also, suicidal, so we talk and help each other… (DO NOT ask why we broke up…)

Quidem dolorum id soluta eius id maxime quas.

Talking to Esther, she’s really chill. She’s kinda hard to understand tho. I frfr don’t get what she says 99.9% of the time. But she’s chill, I feel like we’re friends… Overall it’s peaceful talking to her.

Can’t forget these guys: Talking to MusicKing, ≪Grim Reaper≫(Grim), Ells, Yachil, and JohnDoe604, is peaceful to. Their FRFR smart asf. It’s really peaceful talking with Ells tho. She’s one of the few people on Q that is like really kind and sweet. She’s also, not a cusser which is good, she’s different in a way, and that is what makes us, or me feel connected to her. Yachil, is a good kid. He’s also chill, he’s kinda… Weird? IN A GOOD WAY DUDE! But ye, it’s okay to be weird. frfr JohnDoe604 is the brains in my life. He’s like a wise guy, fsfs. My homie and long lost lil bro. MusicKing, is also my lil broz! He’s chill to(How many times have I said “chill”) ye, we all good. ≪Grim Reaper≫(Grim) she’s… Weird, kinda? Sorry ≪Grim Reaper≫(Grim) but some of the questions you ask me… Are, off the chain frfr. BUT ask me anything, nothing’s to much for me to handle.. other than, that one question… That “yes or no? I’m confused” question? YEAH, that was *cough cough*… ANYWAY… buttt what did I expect?

Many things! I’ll list them for you!

Ive been pretending to be okay and acting as normal as possible, but Im actually completely heartbroken after a recent breakup. Its painful and really affecting me, to the point where I cant concentrate at work, Ive lost my appetite, I cant sleep, and It feels as if my whole world has been turned upside down. I loved him so much. He said so many cruel things to me and it made me realize he must not have loved me the way I loved him, or he wouldnt have said such horrible things. How do I handle the heartbreak and why cant I accept that he didnt love me and just forget about him?